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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 13:01:33 GMT

I will be closing down this blog in 5 days. I've changed my host due to personal reasons. I will only give out the URL to those I deem will not promulgate my new blog and those who respect my privacy. Thank you.

Friday, December 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 13:31:18 GMT

Yehey! The year 2005 is coming to a close, and the year of the dog is here at last! I'm really excited about the new year precisely because in only 5 months, I', officially going to be an adult. Yet, there is a downside to it, I may already be imprisoned. The good part about it is that I have no curfew! Also, I can enter clubs or parties legally, BUT I'm really not the type of person who enjoys clubs and rowdy parties. I do NOT want to get accustomed to that way of life, because I don't want to waste my youth in such things. I'd rather waste it with my family, friends, and my honey. Oh YES! My honey! I am glad to say that the year was a good year, nothing was wasted and I wouldn't have asked for a better yet if I had the chance to. I am also proud to say that this year, I was able to find THE ONE, get into a good school, and had to opportunity to meet good people. I intend to write a list of my hula for the coming year, but this is just out of habit, and there's no more truth to it. Hehe. I just enjoy tripping. Anyway, here it goes:

MEcO block H3 - We will have more parties this coming year. However, we may leave one blockmate along the way. In short, baka may mawala sa block either by academic reasons or decision. I really don't know, but I have a strong feeling about it. In any case, trip lang naman ito, kung hindi magkatotoo eh di ok, right?
English R15 - You will all miss me. Hehe, joke lang. I think there is a probability that we will get higher grades or else our teacher will have to face the consequences aka low evaluation mark. Also, we will have a hard time with Lit since our teacher couldn't care less if we learn something or not.
MG's barkada - Most of you guys will be sawi in your lovelife due to the fact that most of you do not want to let go of your 'loves.' The only way for you guys to have a happy lovelife is if you decide to be happy and not rely on other people to bring you happiness.
Former HS barkada - Our issue will still not have a closure, and most of you will still hate me, and I really don't care. Hehe
Honey - Panget ka pa rin, Hon!!! Anyway, you will do better in school, especially because I will pressure you to do so. You may get in the DL if you really do your work well.
ME - I will attend summer class. (requirement kasi) Also, may get a good teacher in my FL class.
SCHOOL - Magmamahal ang food sa Caf. Booooooooo!\

Anyway, these are just trippings.

2005 FLASHABACK

January - I got the news that I passed Ateneo.

February - I had a last-minute Valentine.

March - Our class won the Grad Song Competition. Graduation day! I also went to my Hon's Grad ball, and yes, we won the King and Queen of the Night Award.

April/May - I was supposed to go the US, unfortunately I got chicken pox. Darn. Hehe

June - I officially became an Atenean.

July/August/September/October - Harassed with all the school work. I also survived the first sem and nearly made it to the DL.

November /December - Still harassed with all the school work. Goodness, this will never end!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!

Monday, December 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 10:30:47 GMT

The computer's been on for 8 hours already. I'm finished with the 15 notecards needed for English, but I'm still searching for additional information. I am a bit worried that I won't be able to write a good paper, especially since I'm starting to procrastinate already. I am also worried about the result of our long exam in Calculus. I know I didn't do very well, and that makes me more nervous altogether.

Right now, I am downloading some songs for my cousin. She asked me to burn some CDs. I have 10 more songs to download. Crapness.

What I got for Christmas!!! I got a bag with a new shirt from my Tita. I got an expensive lip gloss from my Tito and Tita. I got 500 from my other Tita and I got 300 from my Lola. What can I say, we're poor. Si mommy nga pala, binili ako ng shirt from Artwork yesterday after watching Shake Rattle and Roll (SUBRANG CORNY). Anyway, Mark gave me a red leather case for my ipod nano. He also gave me a couple of teddy bears. Cute nga eh! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! I'm excited para sa family reunion this Friday. I hope I get some more money. I'm opening a bank account tomorrow. Coolness!!!

Addio! Again, Merry Christmas! Happy Birthday Jesus! Mmmmmmmmmwaaaah!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 15:20:15 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 15:17:23 GMT

I am still not in the mood for Christmas, even if it's past 12 already. I am currently wrapping my english-filipino dictionary. Really, really bored. I spent Christmas Eve at Tita Plinky's Mom's house. We had Noche Buena there, with some of their relatives. Probably tomorrow, we'll watch a movie at PowerPlant after buying clothes at G4. It depends on our mood.

Kanina, I read an email from Merks. Ewan ko ba. I won't post anything regarding my ex-barkada anymore. Seems as though some of them do read my entries and have violent reactions about it. Ewan. I know I am entitled to my opinion in my blog, which they can negate in their own blog. I respect their privacy, that's why I don't go to their blogs at all. I really don't know. This is a really old and stupid issue. Christmas was fun, then that email came along. Bummer.

Addio.

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 12:15:03 GMT

I am sad... For no particular reason, depression has the better of me. This may be caused by too much watching Ayashi no Ceres. I miss Tooya, my boyfriend for 5 years, yet he has yet to discover that fact. Ohhh............ Life can be so unfair. When you're looking for something, you tend not to find it. But when you stop looking, it suddenly appears.

If you love the person, that person will also be willing to suffer with you, right? That person doesn't care about your past, just as long as you're together. Just call out their name, and they'll wait for you. That's how you turn your life from black to white. - Ayashi no Ceres

Friday, December 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 12:07:53 GMT

Yesterday, I went out with my high school friends. I really missed them, but then, some of the bad things that happened before came back to haunt me. Although I tried not to recall those things, the way some of them treated me made me want to leave almost immediately.

Anyway, let us just leave that be. A few hours ago, I watched the entire series of Ayashi no Ceres. I was really touched even if I already watched the series before. I was greatly affected by the story, and the music that went along with it was good. Here are the lyrics of the said songs... These are just translations, but it's really good.

Cross My Heart

In this world there's sadness so profound you can't even cry
Like you're being surrounded by a deep, endless darkness...

Yes, it was your sweet voice calling my name
that saved me from despair when I stood at the cliff's edge.
Let's become one, holding each other so that
the two crosses we bear become one.

An astonishing light runs through [1]
    my fingers, my body, my soul...
    The awakening dawn wraps around both of us,
    and I vow:
    Just I wanna be with you forever.   I love you.
    Fate tests us, but
    I'll put my hand to my chest & make the sign of the cross [2]
    We won't be separated: Cross my heart

I've found a love that I would risk my life to keep.
I finally know why I had to live a life tainted with loneliness

Holding each other gently, as if in prayer...
I'll leave my love behind within you.

My love pours forth endlessly
    for your eyes, for your skin, for your warmth.
    Just whisper
    that you wish the passing time would stop.
    Just I wanna be with you forever.   I feel you.
    If you can love someone so much,
    there's nothing to regret, even if you die.
    I won't let you go: Cross my heart.

Let all that we are become one, so that
    the two crosses we bear become one.
An astonishing light runs through
    my fingers, my body, my soul...
    The awakening dawn wraps around both of us,
    and I vow:
    Just I wanna be with you forever.   I love you.
    Fate tests us, but
    I'll put my hand to my chest and make the sign of the cross
    We won't be separated: Cross my heart.

One - Even if the world ends I will love you
Become the wind, unfathomable distress.
    I'll hold back your loneliness.
    The two of us are a bracing wind, oneness.
    Even if this world comes to an end, I won't leave you.

Deep within my rusted memories,
I feel like you cried out to me,
just as if our very cells yearn for each other.

When two souls that have shed their loneliness
embrace and melt into one,
from out of loneliness, love is born.

Burst into flame, distress that blocks the way.
    I want to burn the darkness of the past.
    Our hearts are, yes, endless.
    A real miracle is right here with us.

If by chance we're ever separated,
I'll probably be a mere shell of who I was, [1]
like a swan whose wings have completely floundered.

It's alright to show you can bare your loneliness,
healing the pain with your lips
until a rose blooms in your heart.

Become the wind, unfathomable distress.
    I'll hold back your loneliness.
    The two of us are a bracing wind, oneness.
    Even if this world comes to an end, I won't leave you.

When souls that were born along with loneliness
are brought together by fate, and melt into one,
eternity begins to flow.

Burst into flame, distress that blocks the way.
    I want to burn the darkness of the past.
    Our hearts are, yes, endless.
    A real miracle is right here with us.

Become the wind, unfathomable distress.
    I'll hold back your loneliness.
    The two of us are a bracing wind, oneness.
    Even if this world comes to an end, I won't leave you.

Scarlet

Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky?
Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?

When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in her heart
to rest, they burn the color of passion.

I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.

Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose,
so then why are we destined to dream?

Sometimes two dreams can turn into love,
but there are also times when they can't.

Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard.
Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.
Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard.
Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.

I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were.
But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 13:00:39 GMT

Share ko lang... Yesterday while giving bath to my younger cousin, Ally *the one in the pictures in the preceeding entries* I asked her... "Sino bestfriend mo?" with a huge smile on my face.

She looked at me and giggled. "Si Ate Dianne."

Grabe, na-touch talaga ako dun. MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL. And don't forget the gifts!

Addio!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 12:58:08 GMT

Now I feel REALLY REALLY BAD. I talked to my Uncle and asked him about the problem in our exam. Turns out, the answer is 0. Stupid mistake. That's the one problem I have to trade in tomorrow in Calculus. It is a risky decision, but I have to stick with it. Here's the solution...

Given that the rate between A and B is 6km/hr and the rate on land (between B and D) is 8km/hr, what should be x so that it will be the fastet route to D from A.

Get the hypotenus... so it'll be *distance between A and B is 3km nga pala* c = (9 + (8-x)^2)^1/2
get the function... so f(x) = 6[9 + (8-x)^2)]^1/2 + 8x
get the derivative of f(x)
then get the second derivative
what will happen is x = 8, so the shortest/fastest way to get to D from A is when the distance between B and C is 0.

Stupidity! At least I'll be treated with ice cream this time around. Pababaan na naman ito ng grade.

Anyway, my Mom decided not to allow me at all if the party's going to be at Cainta, but if he party's in Katipunan, I can go. Weird, right? Anyway, we'll just see tomorrow. This is what I get for being an only child: I get so much protection when there's really nothing to worry about. Grrrrrr. Goodness, my life is getting weirder by the second.

Another stroy to tell is that yesterday, my blockmates and I went to the condo of Jonas because of our 3-hour break. Anyway, it was ok. I felt left out most of the time, but hey, you can't please anyone. And sometimes, you just don't jive with the people you're with acquiantances with. I'm not so sure if my blockmates will be able to read this post or if they even bother going to this blog, but I am not mad at them. I'm just a little sad, because I really do try to get along, but it's really really hard for me to trust people and to open up because of my barkada issue back in high school. I don't blame anyone anymore about this. Maybe I'm just over reacting, but this is my blog, so let me be.

Ayun! Mels just texted me, inviting me to a get-together this Thursday at G4. I am praying my mom will allow me, since I'm not allowed to go to Cainta tomorrow. Shocking! I have a back-up gimmick planned already. Since I am no longer grounded, I will maximize the 2 weeks given to me and go out and at the same time, cram all my papers of Christmas day and New Year. What a way to start the year, right? Well, let's just pray everything goes well.

Christmas is in the air, but I can't sniff it because of the darn cold I got from our teacher. Grrrr. Although... I am excited about our family reunion on the 30th. I hope my Uncle hires a guitarist or whatnot so we can enjoy some music. Hehehe. Here comes money... I love money! Money, money money! Awwww.... I love Mister Crabs.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 10:44:21 GMT

I'm having a little trouble with my Mom. She won't allow me to our block's Christmas patry because it's TRAFFIC. WEIRD. I'm going to talk to her again later and see if I can still persuade her to allow me. Goodness.